Faith

I'm having somewhat of a small faith crisis. Maybe it's not so small. I'm having trouble trusting in God's goodness. I'm having trouble in trusting a God who lets people suffer, who lets children die, who has let my sister get cancer for the third time. And a God who has yet to heal her. I hear of so many people with illness, specifically cancer, and when you hear of a 13-year-old or seven-year-old dying from this disease it makes me angry with God and I wonder how I can trust Him with my sister and with my own life. Then I think, well, the thing is God could heal her, but because of this free choice thing, he chooses to not always intervene. Though miracles do happen, I do believe that. I'm trying to keep hope. I keep thinking of my dad, and how God brought him through his medical crisis, and how doctors are amazed at how well he is doing and that he came out as well as he did. God answered our prayers. And maybe He's answering our prayers with my sister, we just can't see how yet. Still, it's very challenging when it feels as if our prayers remain unanswered. But I'm still going to pray, and attempt to trust, and keep hope.