yoga and death

This morning I thought this blog would be about yoga. I've started doing yoga in the mornings again and as I listened to the instructor on the dvd saying, "soften your heart" I figured I would ramble on about how does one "soften your heart"? Amazenly though, when I try to do this task, I think I know what she means. Not that I could explain it. You just have to do it. I think.

Anyway, the main thing on my mind now though isn't yoga, but more thoughts about my husband and his family right now. His grandmother, who has been ill for awhile since her husband passed, went to be with God this morning. It really is a blessing, because she wasn't happy here anymore. She wanted to be with her husband and to be done with the sufferings of this world. And God finally took her home. We know it's a blessing, yet we're left here to deal with our own emotions and saddness in the loss of a loved one. It makes me wonder, what really happens to us when we die? Do we go to heaven, where we are surrounded by those who have passed on before us? Or are we merely gone, we no longer exist, in this world or another world? What do you think? What are your views on the afterlife? As a Christian, even in my doubts I come back to belief in God and heaven where there is no more pain or sorrow, but love and joy! A place where Iwill see my grandpa again, who died more than a year ago. A place where my husband will see both this grandparents who are now united together. A place where my grandma will one day see her husband again, and so it continues. I feel the presence of God in my life and I do believe. Yes, I really do believe in a God who loves us and will welcome us home someday. It's just that death is such an unknown. Yet even in my doubts, I come back to the realization that I do believe.